Saturday, January 22, 2022

every day is like a bit of a nightmare

 


Bren was given out these days, but somehow she felt as if she was floating to. Nothing had really changed. She lived in her own place and Liv was there too. Of course, there was a lot of her time spent at Mario's. Yet, not every moment.

"What the hell?" Gonzo texted. "I thought I was in the wrong place."

Bren didn't want to fret. She ignored whatever he might send. True, she wanted to let him know he was in the wrong place. Still, if she gave in only a little, they'd be right back where they started from. And she didn't dare give him an inch.

Instead, she did extra hours at work. As it was she wasn't sick yet. Possibly nausea which she was certain meant lack of sleep. She just couldn't eat.

"But why?" Mario didn't understand. She cooked for him such great food, like meatloaf and stews. Naturally, he'd make her eat with him, more or less. Naturally, he said she worried so much. Maybe that was why she couldn't devour a whole meal.

"Oh, I'm fine." She shook her head. She didn't want to take up all her time with him trying to coax her into better eating habits.

"But you didn't eat breakfast," Mario remembered.

"I just can't." She sighed. Naturally, another text would come from Gonzo. Really, she was just tired. She needed a rest, but even so, she'd lie there practically thrashing in the sheets. She knew of night sweats, but she didn't tell Mario. Maybe it was COVID, but this was her normal life. 

He promised not to nag, but she knew he meant well.

"Really, I'm OK." It might not be the truth. Somehow she felt lost in the world and it was good to have an anchor like Mario. It was the uncertainty that she wasn't worthy of him.

10 comments:

  1. every day is like a bit of a nightmare - exellence title

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  2. Ok she didn’t tell anything to Mario! But Mario should understand that something wrong with her?

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  3. I loved the chapter. I hope everything ends well
    xo
    https://www.dearlytay.com.br/

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  4. I think she should tell Mario everything. It's good to have someone we can rely on.
    Great chapter.

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  5. Afinal o que ela tem?
    O que será?

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    1. What's she got anyway?
      What's it going to be?❤❤❤ LOL..oh, sometimes in life we go through spells that may or may not be anything.

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  6. Poor Bren! I hate that she's so anxious and isn't eating. And that she's still in contact with Gonzo! It's lovely how she thinks of Mario as her anchor, though -- even if she doesn't think she deserves him: "Somehow she felt lost in the world and it was good to have an anchor like Mario. It was the uncertainty that she wasn't worthy of him." Hopefully, with time, he can convince her!

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