Tori didn't know what to feel. She'd been so happy to be Hope's friend. Well, when they were both in the same boat. But now..NOW Hope had her baby.
Maybe she was full of envy.
"I don't want to see the baby," her voice was cold and Dylan looked at her in shock.
"But..but I thought you two-"
Tori swelled a frown and went back to the hat she was crocheting. The rest of the world could leave her alone. She could like no one. Except for Dylan. She needed Dylan. She could be happy with just Dylan.
Dylan didn't press her on it. Of course, she'd nixed the little camping trip a few weeks back when Deano asked them out. She could think of a thousand reasons not to go. Besides, a heatwave came and everyone stayed in. Not long after came straight winds one weekend and knocked the power out in most of the city and the surrounding area. Luckily, their power didn't go out.
Yes, she needed to not think lucky..but to be thankful for every little thing, but it was a lonely place. Even more lonely was waiting on this freaky long wait for something she wasn't even sure she could stand to see.
That baby might as well have been an infestation of something and..what if it lived inside her forever. She cringed the thought. And if it did get here, what would she do? Could she really love it? Could she?
Her cell rang on the dining table. Dylan went to get it.
"It's Hope," he said. "You need to talk to her."
She looked at him as if she had no reason to, but on the last ring she picked up. "How are you?" She made herself smile but it was such a sickening thing to do. She hated being put on the spot. Didn't Hope know she actually hated everything? But Tori did her best to sound happy. Happy for Hope. Happy for Hope and the baby.
"I want to come over," Hope said.
"Oh, you shouldn't." Tori winced and mentioned how bad the air quality had been of late with the wildfires up north.
"You don't live that far away," Hope insisted on coming. "I want to see you."
"Sure." But Tori couldn't make herself say that she wanted to see the baby. It felt as if it might be tragic if she did.
Definetly Tori feels a little bit envy, she is not bad, but she can't control it
ReplyDeleteIt's sad that she feels like this :(
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Tori's nature doesn't seem to be envious or harmful, but if she tries, perhaps she could get close to the baby more than Hope. :)
ReplyDeleteIt is interesting that Tori feels this way, I didn't expect it....but now that I think of it, I remember reading that Tori had a difficult childhood.
ReplyDeleteMaybe Tori is having a hard time accepting Hope's baby because she had a hard time with her mother? It might be some unresolved child trauma on Tori's part.
I think Tori wants to be happy for Hope, but she is having a hard time controlling her emotions. I think Tori is afraid of change.
On the other hand, it is nice of Dylan to be so comforting and understanding of Tori and not pressuring her.
Still, I think it would be best for Tori to speak openly with Hope and admit she's having a hard time- better than to pretend everything is o.k.
Glad she is having Hope over
ReplyDeleteMmm, no entiendo mucho la actitud de Tori, supongo que es envidia pero... no sé, me genera conflicto aa
ReplyDeleteMmm, I don't understand Tori's attitude much, I guess it's envy but... I don't know, it causes me conflict aa--------
DeleteI know it's confusing, especially if you are a new reader. Tori does have her problems. 1. Her pregnancy was from a date rape. She doesn't remember how it happened. The only person she can think who it was is now dead (Melvin) from COVID. 2. Her mother died when she was born. 3. She's gestation diabetic.
It might be okay.
ReplyDeletePobre Tori, genial fragmento te mando un beso
ReplyDeleteTori com ciúmes porque a amiga teve um bebê e agora precisa cuidar dele?? Será? Acho que não é inveja, deve ser ciúmes.
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Poor Tori. After reading your reply to Valeria, her outlook makes perfect sense. I didn't know that her pregnancy was the result of rape. That's very complicated and dark and bound to make an expectant mother feel, at the very least, reluctant. It's wonderful that she has Dylan: "Tori swelled a frown and went back to the hat she was crocheting. The rest of the world could leave her alone. She could like no one. Except for Dylan. She needed Dylan. She could be happy with just Dylan." Part of me empathizes with her wanting to shut everyone else out -- but another part of me hears alarm bells. I hope that she'll be okay.
ReplyDeleteWoow, you wrote many posts Dear friend! I will read.
ReplyDeleteTori's behaviour is really complicated. Does She Jealous or envy. She doesn't think and feel correctly. I think her mind confused.
DeleteTori's behaviour is really complicated. Does She Jealous or envy. She doesn't think and feel correctly. I think her mind confused. ---- Oh, she's been through such trauma. It's amazing she didn't want to have an abortion when she found out when she was pregnant..actually, it was too late for one because she never ever thought she'd be pregnant. After all, Dylan is trans. So she is going through a lot. Hopefully, she will get better.
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ReplyDeleteI keep following the story.
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The scenes all work together to create a delicate image between Tori and Hope. It feels like I am the fly on the wall watching and listening to what is said and what is unsaid. 🤓
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