What we remember

 

I miss Liv so much. Especially this time of year. I don't know why I say that. Maybe it's just my allergies. But I feel so emotional lately. I don't even know why. 

OK,  I might not know how she really looks anymore. Sure, we FaceTime at least once a week. I used to tell her so much, but not anymore. I'm having a hard time talking to her these days.

You see, Liv doesn't like Carmen. I'm not sure why. Well, I think I know. Carmen used to date Liv's ex from high school. Although I think she says that as an excuse. Liv might be jealous of Carmen because she is here with Liv's mother while Liv has a new family in Seoul.

Family, that's another thing. She's a new mom. I'm not and I'd like to be, but I've decided maybe right now isn't the time, but when it is..well, I'll be happy. Still, I don't know what to talk about with her anymore. And I'm afraid I'll say something about Carmen. Cause she is a co-worker and friend. We make a good team. 

And I want to nurture my friendship with Carmen. I want to be that friend. I guess I won't be her best friend because, well, she has Sammie. But she's going through the same thing I am with Liv. Sammie's a new mom, too. 

Still, Carmen has Justin, who is a close friend of my husband. I can't help but think we'll have Friendsgiving and Christmas parties together. I hope Liv is finding friends, too. But she never talks about that, and I haven't gotten the nerve up to ask her, either.

-Jade