How can you just leave me standing

 Rennie remembered a time when the summer crochet dress fit splendidly. She was afraid that after the baby, it wouldn't be so. Yes, she felt too much lately. She woke up one day in her Seoul apartment with Jun, wondering, "WHAT HAVE I DONE?"

She was in crisis mode, perhaps. The baby was due at the end of the week, and suddenly, she wanted to go home. Yes, she was finally homesick. She wanted Auntie Nessa and the sisters. But when she called, she found out Nessa had gone back to Trinidad, and Jules and Deana were out in Florida. 

She sighed as if they never really cared about her to begin with. She'd been an abandoned child most of her life. There was just too much grief to think of those cruel days when her mother and father were still together. Not once did they ever catch on to what was going on with her as she stayed in a trance watching Sesame Street.

Later, she ended up at Auntie Nessa when her dad got arrested, and her mom died at the disco. They never spoke of them. Oddly, she had a dream the night before. They came to visit in their RV (In reality, her dad never wore his glasses and lost his driver's license. Her mom would have been better off as a truck driver, but that never happened either). But in this dream, they were together talking about waterfalls and where to go for the best ice cream they had ever had.

It made Rennie almost laugh. Who were those people? She knew them to always be bickering, but evidently, they'd found peace in the afterlife. She tried to tell them about the baby, but neither seemed to understand.

"Oh, baby, we've got to go," her mom smiled, and they were in a group hug. "We never stopped loving you."

Now she sniffed back tears, thinking she needed to get into her shower slippers and make some coffee. Instead, she was taken over by an ocean. Waterworks were everywhere.